My Sugar Monster Has to Die...

Well here I am again, starting AGAIN…

I've lost count of the amount of times I've said here, turning over a new leaf, restarting, going to finish this stupid bloody diet.

I feel quite confused as to what I should do.

Do I go back to the GI Diet and stick to it strictly?

Do I need a new diet?

How do I bring exercise into my life?

I hate this dieting bollocks, yet I want to carry on as a firm believer in taking action, rather than mulling this over doing nothing (well I am an aries).

This limbo feels rubbish though I don't want to give up, but I do want to diet, but I can't stick to it.  And I feel angry and cheated because dieting has turned me in to a chocolate fiend.  I need to kill my inner sugar monster, but he's all cute and fluffy and likes to be fed twixes.

Some might think this is crazy, me tormenting myself like this.  But I have been so unhappy all of my life with myself because of my weight.  No matter how much I try to reset my brain, it ain't happening.  I do not like myself because I am fat.  Nothing anyone says is going to change that, so I have to change myself.

I have to change myself, boy does it suck.  But if I get to my target weight, right now, it would seem so worth the struggle.

The sugar monster has to die!

Comments

[Enyo]

Oh god. I completely sympathize with you....I've been lurking your blog for forever...and seem to be finding that my path follows yours all too familiarly. Your post today was my icing, I need to kick start as well...and right now seems as good a time as any. Hang in there...you can do it :)

[Elizabeth]

Hint about chocolates from someone with a sweet tooth who worked out how to keep weight down. Try and develop a taste for dried fruits (there are some nice varieties at Julian Graves, etc) and every time you feel like choccies, take a handful of those instead.

No, don't pull a face - they can grow on you. They contain sugar, but less than sweets and are good for you. Second hint - eat mixed nuts - go well with the fruit, very good for you and also very filling. High calorie yet good for losing weight.

http://www.diamondfoods.com/health_energy.htm

[Elizabeth]

Oops. Sorry about the double post. How did I do that?

And all this talk about chocolates - suddenly I feel like some choccies.... where's the fruit, quick!

[Curvy Goddess]

Thanks for the tip elizabeth and the sympathy enyo - much appreciated. Thankfully I finally seem to have my dieting mojo back.

xx xx xx