Tomorrow

When I was little (in terms of age not size) I loved Garfield.  He comforted me because he was always mocking diets and how he viewed himself.  Garfield's ideals of sleeping all day and eating nothing but lasagne did and still do appeal to me.

Last week was a bad week and I have eaten and drunk a lot of things that I have should not have.  I am so close at the moment to saying fuck it.  But then I have strange moments of catching a glimpse of myself in the mirror and thinking I should be bigger, my face is fleshier - isn't it?  Or I go shopping with my best friend who tells me that the size 16 dress I have tried on is too big (and around my bust of all places!!).

I am really bored and fed up of dieting, but I don't want to stay this size, despite the positive comments from the people I care about, I still feel fat.  I still feel huge.  I want the belly that I have always had to be flat and to know what that feels like.  So I am just gonna have to shut up with my whining and get on with it.

Back to Garfield, one of his funniest comments on dieting (in my opinion) is about when they are started...  Of course you will be thinking surely they always start on Monday - Garfield's most hated day of the week...  Actually most diets are started 'Tomorrow' (sadly though I can't find a link to it).

I am back on the wagon as of tomorrow :-)