Back!

I needed a break from here. 

I needed to be away from this part of me.

I had become so obsessed with my weight, that I was no longer losing pounds, but parts of myself.

The nice thing about it though was that it happened gradually.  Slowly I realised that being solely obsessed with losing weight was not healthy and it was f**king boring!  I just stopped coming here and spent more time in the 'real' world...  No drama, no tears, just the realisation that I need more in my life than a quest to be slim.  I know there have been a few anti-diet bloggers (there is a term for that but I've been away from this blogsphere so long I've forgotten!) who have tried to tell me that, but I'm stubborn, I do my best to ignore other people who tell me what to do.

Anyway so whilst I have been away from here I have been lazing around, chilling with my lovely boyfriend, hanging out with friends, been to Malta to see my family a couple of times and just generally enjoying my life. 

I've also been developing an interest in sewing, it is a real shame I didn't do it sooner, because my mum was a seamstress and she could have taught me loads, but of course I waited till she moved to Malta before it dawned on me just how cool it would be to make clothes.  That said on my last visit to Malta my mum showed me (again!) how to shorten trousers and it was really great that we worked on that together :) And!! I'm about to start a sewing course in which I will learn about using sewing machines and will make a bag, I'm really looking forward to it mainly because I'm scared of my sewing machine, so anything that will fill me with technical confidence is a plus!  I've got a couple of patterns on my desk and I can't wait to start work on them.  I got loads of books on sewing for Christmas so I have loads of ideas.

In terms of other hobbies, I joined an on-line reading group which has renewed my love of reading even though the first book we read was shockingly bad!  I'd love to do more writing, but am thinking just reading regularly again would be a positive start.

Anyway I'll stop rambling and get back to why this blog his here still.  My weight...

Unfortunately I have put some weight back on and physically it doesn't feel good.  My knees ache occasionally and I feel slower.  I'm still going the gym and walking as much as I can but I probably need to do more...  And as much as I hate to admit, I want to lose weight and continue towards my goal of 9 stone.  However under no circumstances can I allow it to take over my life again and as a result I don't actually have a plan about how I'm going to do it.

So I'm back.

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A friend of mine a long time suggested that I should keep one blog about all aspects of my life rather than having separate ones.  At the time he suggested this I was dead set on compartmentalising my life and keeping dieting separate from everything else (plus stubborn as mentioned above!).  All that happened was I prioritised weight over everything else and I've hardly written a sausage in my other blogs.  Anyway in an attempt to maintain balance and not obsess I shall now write here about all of my other interests and life.  So James thanks for the advice on blog-writing, its only taken me 2-3 years to understand it :)