The Curvy Goddess

Simply Yours Lingerie

A little while back the lovely people at Simply Yours asked me if I would do a review of some of their lingerie for them, obviously I was very happy to oblige!  I got to choose what I wanted to review and I opted for the;

 

Gok wan sex kitten corset

A Caryn Franklin under-wired bra

A Simply yours bra

 

I have to say, the gok corset is lovely! I opted for the black one (called deep on the website) and its very silky to touch and comes a bright pink ribbon (with Goks name all-over it) and a thicker black ribbon for when you fancy a change.  And of course you could do a Gok and buy a completely different colour of ribbon to wear with this corset if you liked! It was incredibly comfortable to wear and was excellent at slimming the waist, additionally I tried wearing it under a dress and it was not visible.  My only complaint would be that the corset could not contain my bosom for long!  However as this corset was a tight fit I suspect that I got the next size up, the corset would be able to hold me in and up,  plus if my bosom could be controlled I'd also be happy to wear this corset out!  

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I've always had big boobs and as a teenager one thing that saddened me was that I only seemed to able to find bras that were either boringly practical or lacy and sexy, I could never find any bras with cute or colourful prints...  So when looking through the Simply Yours website and I spotted the Caryn Franklin bra, I thought immediately of my teenage self and decided that I had to have the bra!  When the bra arrived I was not disappointed, it is comfortable and very smooth, so it works well under fitted clothing.  And whilst being cute and comfy, this bra is also supportive -I absolutely love this bra!  Please make more Ms Franklin!

...On a similar note I also chose this Simply Yours bra, which I also thought looked cute and fun.  The bra fitted comfortably and was supportive however I just didn't like how it looked on me (I think I am too pale, unlike the lovely tanned model), but don't let that deter you from Simply Yours!  I have bought some great bras from them in the past and they have a large selection of cute and colourful bras to keep my inner teenager happy.

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Thank you very much Charlotte at Simply Yours for letting me try some of the goodies from your site!

Lots of New Plus Size Clothing to Check Out!!!

Whilst I've been slacking off, there have been a few small developments in the world of plus size fashion...

Firstly and finally I might add (!!!) Anna Scholz has got her own on-line shop - yay!  And whilst I certainly can't afford to buy any of her clothing (only her simplybe collection is in my price range!) its great now that her gorgeous stuff is so much easier to get hold of and see!  If money was no object I'd certainly be after this dress and this one too which is sadly sold out.

One area which plus size women seem to completely ignored is with vintage clothing, I often figured that this might be because that if things now are terrible for larger ladies to buy clothing, in the past it was ten times worse.  I've often thought that vintage will forever remain in the mitts of Kate Moss, but it would seem I am wrong.  I have discovered the Frockery who sell secondhand vintage and retro clothing.  Their range is not great, but at least they acknowledge that women over a size 16 might be interested in vintage clothing.

Shortly after discovering the Frockey, I came across Cuddlebunny on Etsy, who in addition to having the cutest alias on Etsy, she also sells some truly cool vintage clothing.   Just check out this coat and then this dress, I want them!!!  And she will do custom orders!  I can feel a spending spree coming in July...

I also want to give a little shout out for a fellow Brightonian, take a look at My Little Halo!  I first came across her stuff on ebay and then discovered her on-line shop, My Little Halo sells some great alternative stuff, my personal favourite is this dress, but there is loads of cute things on her site and shop.

And finally...  Well last year there was some talk of Beth Ditto designing a range of clothes for Evans, I never really believed it would happen, but it does seem that in July Evans will be launching a Beth Ditto collection.  I am both excited and fearful that I will be disappointed.  I have in the past not been complementary of Ms Ditto's fashion sense, however I do think that it is possible that somewhere between Beth Ditto's extreme taste in clothing and Evans tameness, that some great clothing may appear.  I certainly like the domino print top in the Evans ad, but I am a bit freaked out by the Beth Mannequin!

Changes and some updating...

Yesterday evening I spent a bit of time going through all of my links.  I deleted a fair amount of dud links and had a bit of a general tidy up.  I also changed the back ground colours and pictures.  I opted for the cute chickies because I think this a better reflection of me.  Yes I LOVE cute things.   I also updated the list of blogs that I read to include a couple of friends blogs that I read and various other bits and bobs that I like.  

As mentioned a couple of posts back, slowly I am going to include more about me here, because honestly I am more than clothes and weight obsessed loony.  Honestly!!  Anyway at the moment I am trying to write an 'About me', but am struggling as it seems a bit pretentious because normally when I write about me I have a point (or so I think).  

Oh well will have to wait and see...

Clearout

I don’t know if its spring or years of working in administration, but I am at the moment conducting a life clearout.  Yes I’m merging blog ideas, binning old ones and at home I am being ruthless with material objects.  And more scarily I want my stuff to be organised so I know where to look for bank statements, etc...

It all started a few years ago...  As I have mentioned here many times, my parents live in Malta, however they did for a long time live in a nice terraced house in Hampshire, complete with loft and bedrooms for us all to store hoards of crap that my brothers and myself didn’t really want to take with us to our new grown up abodes. 

As a result I spent my 26^th Birthday in my parents loft sorting through all of my childhood crap, most went in the bin, a lot went to charity shops and a very small amount I wanted to keep. 

Over the years I have moved from house to house, each time losing a little more of my stuff.  Some things however have always been quite safe from my urge to purge, mainly books and CDs.  Just before Christmas whilst cleaning and clearing up my desk, I suddenly felt quite cluttered by all of my CDs which are stacked on rack around my desk.  And some of these CDs I hadn’t listened to in years.  Besides I never actually listened to CDs anymore, I just listened to the ripped files through my computer.  So off they went on to eBay, I made about £60 and that certainly helped the end of January slip by more comfortably.

Even more precious to me than CDs was my books...  But a couple of weeks ago it dawned on me.  Although I had completed my dissertation on Hanif Kureishi in April/May 2001, I had not since then read any of his books I had used in my dissertation.  So for 8 years a whole section of precious shelf space had been dedicated to an author whose books I was no longer reading.  So I checked trusty eBay and amazon and discovered I had no chance of selling his books second-hand.  For a moment I thought ‘oh well I’ll just keep them’.  But why?  I’m not reading them...  So I looked through all of the titles.  Three I really enjoyed and would like to read again, but the rest?  They were in the Oxfam bookshop shortly after.  Once I got started on Kureishi it was easy for me to weed out the books I was keeping for sentimental value.

So now I have well over half a bookshelf of space – I can’t wait to fill it with some new books!

Then I came back to my CDs, yes I had gotten rid of all those CDs I wasn’t bothered about keeping, but had retained, my favourites, some of which were over ten years old...  And I came back to the realisation that I didn’t need them, the only thing holding me back was the fear of losing the files.  So at the moment a large chunk of my CDs are on sale on eBay, the money from which I fully intend to buy me a sleek & small external hard drive to keep it all safe.

I really can’t wait for it all to go!  Whatever doesn’t sell on eBay will go to charity and then I will have space!  Most exciting of all though has been the realisation that by getting rid of my CDs, I can remove the CD rack on my desk and with all the extra space I’ll be gaining, I will have a space to do some pattern cutting and room for my sewing machine to be permanently out and accessible!

So goodbye old CDs and books and hello new hobby and books!

Back!

I needed a break from here. 

I needed to be away from this part of me.

I had become so obsessed with my weight, that I was no longer losing pounds, but parts of myself.

The nice thing about it though was that it happened gradually.  Slowly I realised that being solely obsessed with losing weight was not healthy and it was f**king boring!  I just stopped coming here and spent more time in the 'real' world...  No drama, no tears, just the realisation that I need more in my life than a quest to be slim.  I know there have been a few anti-diet bloggers (there is a term for that but I've been away from this blogsphere so long I've forgotten!) who have tried to tell me that, but I'm stubborn, I do my best to ignore other people who tell me what to do.

Anyway so whilst I have been away from here I have been lazing around, chilling with my lovely boyfriend, hanging out with friends, been to Malta to see my family a couple of times and just generally enjoying my life. 

I've also been developing an interest in sewing, it is a real shame I didn't do it sooner, because my mum was a seamstress and she could have taught me loads, but of course I waited till she moved to Malta before it dawned on me just how cool it would be to make clothes.  That said on my last visit to Malta my mum showed me (again!) how to shorten trousers and it was really great that we worked on that together :) And!! I'm about to start a sewing course in which I will learn about using sewing machines and will make a bag, I'm really looking forward to it mainly because I'm scared of my sewing machine, so anything that will fill me with technical confidence is a plus!  I've got a couple of patterns on my desk and I can't wait to start work on them.  I got loads of books on sewing for Christmas so I have loads of ideas.

In terms of other hobbies, I joined an on-line reading group which has renewed my love of reading even though the first book we read was shockingly bad!  I'd love to do more writing, but am thinking just reading regularly again would be a positive start.

Anyway I'll stop rambling and get back to why this blog his here still.  My weight...

Unfortunately I have put some weight back on and physically it doesn't feel good.  My knees ache occasionally and I feel slower.  I'm still going the gym and walking as much as I can but I probably need to do more...  And as much as I hate to admit, I want to lose weight and continue towards my goal of 9 stone.  However under no circumstances can I allow it to take over my life again and as a result I don't actually have a plan about how I'm going to do it.

So I'm back.

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A friend of mine a long time suggested that I should keep one blog about all aspects of my life rather than having separate ones.  At the time he suggested this I was dead set on compartmentalising my life and keeping dieting separate from everything else (plus stubborn as mentioned above!).  All that happened was I prioritised weight over everything else and I've hardly written a sausage in my other blogs.  Anyway in an attempt to maintain balance and not obsess I shall now write here about all of my other interests and life.  So James thanks for the advice on blog-writing, its only taken me 2-3 years to understand it :)

A quickie

Just a quick post to say a couple of things.

Firstly I'm still unsure of what path to go forward with so right now I'm just making sure I exercise and eat healthily.  I need more time to think things through clearly and there are other issues that I haven't written about which affect my decision which I will write here some time soon.

Secondly, please do read Kira Cochrane's latest piece in the reluctant dieter series, it is very funny.

And finally I would just like to say that Newlook lies.  A couple of weeks ago I was seeking a dress to wear to my friend's wedding, I picked up two dresses to try on.  As a size 16-18 I picked up one size 18 dress from their main range and another from their plus size inspire range, also size 18.  The Inspire dress I tried on first.  After fully zipping it up at the back, it fell off me.  I checked all of the labels and it definitely was a size 18.  So like I said Newlook lies!!!  Despite the lies, I bought the other dress which fitted me perfectly.

Progress Eludes Me

Its now over two years since I started changing my diet and exercise habits to lose weight. Although I had much initial success, losing well over 10% of my starting weight, I have been stalled for the last year and a half. I f**ked it all up for a while by being an abstainer/binger of chocolate and cakes. But its now four months since I had hypnotherapy to rid me of my cravings and it has worked far better than I could have ever imagined. I feel happy and at ease with my diet, I eat healthily but have occasional treats (in the savoury form) and the most surprising of all changes is that I now feel comfortable and able to exercise alone.

The odd thing is that I feel relatively happy with myself, I am comfortable with my diet and I feel masses healthier than I did at my heaviest. Although my lumps and bumps still occasionally make me feel uncomfortable, most of the time I am now happier with my appearance.

Whilst I would love to lose more weight, part of me also now feels, why bother? The truth is that to lose weight I would have invest masses of energy into meal planning and a dedicated exercise programme. Really what I want right now is my life back. I have spent a large amount of time and energy into changing myself, making me healthy and now I want some time back to work on other parts of me. I do realise that in order to maintain my weight I will have to do some work, but I have weighed the pretty much the same weight for the last year - surely this proof that I can continue to do this, especially now I exercise much more.

I think what I am trying to say is that I am at the crossroads.

What should I do?

Do I carry on trying to lose weight or accept that I am healthy as I can be and just get on with my life?

Your thoughts would be appreciated :)

Why strike me down...

...Evans has a sexy dress.

I am in shock. 

Check out all of Evans dresses.  There is actually a small collection of cute and flattering dresses!  Is Evans taking tips from *Igigi?  Or has Trinny and Susannah's undress the nation programme shown them that they need to be better?

I can't get over that Rose Print Dress!  Next month one of my bestest friends in the whole world is getting married, so I may go to Evans for a dress!  As much as I love the Rose Print Dress, I am not sure it will suit me, but I shall certainly try it on to see!

*Speaking of Igigi, check out their new range of work wear.  I'm loving Jackie Dress and the Jumper Dress they are so cool!

Online window shopping...

Its less than five days since I got paid and I am already fretting about my finances this month, there is lots to pay for and many expensive social events planned for august, which sadly means that this month I'll have to watch every penny and not purchase a single item of clothing.  Poopy :(

Of course a girl can dream though can't she?  And one can definitely window shop and plan how to spend the bulk of Septembers pay...

Anyway at the moment I have my eye on this dress...  Me wants it!  At the moment I'm keen to smarten up my wardrobe and this dress would be fab for work and wearing over trousers too when it gets colder.

Also I wanted to say thanks to Andrea who sent me a link to EmeraldAngel, they sell some gorgeous alternative pieces and are open to commissions she tells me...  I'm loving their retro and skull print tops!

Finally I thought I would give a little shout out about Yours, some of the clothes Yours sell are a little mumsy for my taste, but they do also have lots and lots of far cuter and fashionable clothes and I can't fault them on price especially when compared to Evans or Simply Be, you are certainly not getting ripped off for being plus sized by Yours...  I'm very much considering purchasing this little skirt in September as part of my effort to smarten up my clothes :)

Anyway thats my window shopping for now, roll on September pay day!

I'm Healthy, I'm Changing but the Scales Stay the Same

As per usual I have been wrapped up with living, I've had no time to update here. Well when I say living I actually mean working, eating, exercising and sleeping. I'm still finding it very difficult to adapt to doing exercise on a regular basis. There is certainly a lack of consistency as far as the amount of exercise I do goes. Sometimes its 4-5 times a week of gym going and aquaerobics, other times its 1-2. I'd like to have more of a routine, but what about the nights you need to have an emergency starfucks/pub visit with best friend to talk? What about when boyfriend offers to take you out for dinner or to the cinema. I don't particularly want to write off my social life completely during the week, but I do feel more of a routine may help my dreadful energy levels.

I now weigh 12 stone five pounds so you can see I've made little progress over the last month, however people I haven't seen much lately keep telling me I look as though I've lost more weight. I'm really glad that despite the lack of weight shifting I am changing regardless. My tummy is shrinking, my back flab is disappearing and my arms which have I always hated seem to be smaller.

As far as food goes, I guess I'm still eating too much but in some ways I don't care. Ever since I've had hypnotherapy I feel liberated in terms of my diet. No longer obsessing over cakes and chocolate is wonderful. Food is both functional and a joy. When I want something interesting or bit exciting, I cook something tasty. When I want simple food its poached eggs on toast. I have also enjoyed just cooking for myself too, I seem to have a bit more time due to it and I think boyfriend prefers this way too! We've agreed to buy some staples together but will continue to eat our own food.

All of that aside I guess I still need to make some changes to my diet, it needs to be lower on quantity. I have no idea how many calories I currently consume. I think the major change diet-wise this month has been that I have drifted away from the GI diet and now eat 'healthily'. I've sticking to low gi principles of eating, but not adhering to rigidly to the GI Diet anymore, for example if I was to follow the GI diet I'd not eat eggs or bananas. Despite the lack of weight loss, I think moving away from the GI Diet is a good development for me. I'm grateful for good old Rick and his recipe books and ideas, but I feel I've grown up diet-wise enough now to fly away from the low GI nest.

Oh well, more tweaking changing and exercise is to be done, I am confident I'll get there in the end!