Post Holiday Reflections & Back to the F**king Diet

Urgh...

I am not sure that going away on holiday was such a great idea for me.

I have come back to delightful grey british weather, which is all the more 

depressing after a week of very, very sunny Malta.  All I want to

do is hide under my duvet, watch Greys Anatomy/Lost/Heroes/24/Ugly Betty

and eat.

Work is busy, friends are sad and I have to diet!  I really, really

don't want to diet after eating all I wanted on holiday, plus wine,

which until my holiday I had not wanted to drink...  And I have hit a

first.  I have gained 2 pounds from my holiday blow out, which is the

first time I have gained any weight since starting my diet since

September.

A stone back that would have devastated me, but to be honest now I don't

care.  I loved every minute of eating tasty food in Malta.  I am

starting to understand why now dieting seems to be nemesis of permanent

weightloss, my eating habits pre-diet were much better than how I feel

now - I just want to eat crap pure and simple.  I am sure that hardened

dieters would know this, but myself diet virgin until last September,

this really surprises me, I always expected that a good diet would make

me a more virtous eater.

Anyway, some how, despite all of this I now have to find a way back to

eating healthly and back on to the GI diet, as per usual hardest of all,

giving up sugar is proving to be tough, driving me slighlty more insane

than usual.

So far I have taken the step of eating loads of satsumas and clearing my

wardrobe.

The wardrobe sorting I am actually quite proud of, I have successfully

managed to throw away some more favourite worn out jeans and possibly

got rid of all of my old sized clothes.  Yesterday a couple of carrier

bags fully of old clothes went to charity, another couple wait to go.  I

have a big bunch of stuff to sell on ebay, I'm gonna try to list at

least 10 items a week.  So in a few weeks time, my wardrobe should be

much more empty...

Anyway the theory behind the wardrobe clearing is that I will only have

clothes that fit me or are a bit too tight, I'm hoping that will keep me motivated to diet...