The Curvy Goddess

Time

I've been a little frustrated by my one pound losses over the last few weeks.  I am naturally just an impatient person - I want everything now!  And most of all I want to be nine stone now.  Then I can move on to fixing the next problem/issue in my life.

To be honest I don't actually think time is the real issue.  The issue is that over the last four weeks I haven't been giving the diet 100% or playing squash.  So this week I have and giving up sugar again has been tough - but fortunately I now think the worst is over.  And yesterday I had a sneaky mid week weigh in and I was thrilled to see 12.13 on the scales...  At last the 12's are approaching, if get through this next stone - I will be in new terroritory.

Will have to wait until next week though to see if my renewed effort has made any difference as the evil TOTM approaches.

Clothes Limbo

At the moment I would just love to go clothes shopping.

But I seem to be between sizes.  22, 20 is too big and 18 too small.

I live in fear of my trousers falling down ;-)

And if I continue my trend of just loosing a pound a week, this could carry on for a while.

Getting dressed in the morning can be both frustrating and liberating, as some trousers just fall off or I discover a top that previously fitted badly, which now fits me well.

My plan is to only by clothes when I can fit into size 18 clothes at Primark, but I am not sure when that will be.

So for now I will just have to wait...

Although I am tempted to buy this.  Obviously buying a pretty dress which I could only wear clubbing etc is more important than buying trousers that fit which I can wear everyday. 

Apologies

Just wanted to say sorry for the lack of posting latley.

I've had no free weekends, some busy week days and evenings when all I want to do is watch dvds be kept safe in my duvet!

The next couple of weekends are free so hopefully I should have a little more time to commit to blogging and have some time to myself generally...

Anyway on friday I weighed myself and another pound has come off.  Thats 18 pounds now gone, 57 to go.  I am a little disappointed that at the moment it is is only coming off a pound a week, but I haven't been doing exercise and sticking to the diet 100% has been tricky with various social occassions restricting my choices.  So I really ought to be bloody glad that at least a pound has been coming off each week!

I am hoping this week to follow the the diet to a tee and force myself to play squash at least once.

IGIGI

A little while ago I was contacted by a lovely lady from IGIGI who wanted know if I was interested in doing a garment review for them.

Well of course I was!  Any plus size woman here in the UK would love to try out and wear some of their gorgeous plus size clothes, which are far superior to anything we can get over here in the UK.  Lushious flowing gowns, sexy black lace and vibrant colours are available en-masse at IGIGI!

Upon trying on the Fantasy Wrap Top my boyfriend proceeded to tell me that he really loved the top on me because it made me look like a Ninja!  Well there you have it - if you are aiming for a sexy and mysterious look I would most recomend the Fantasy Wrap Top - men are guranteed to believe that you are some kind of secret agent...  On a more serious note - this top is gorgeous - the lace is comfortable and soft.  The camisole top that comes with it is not attached so you can wear it with other clothes too!  Often wrap tops confuse me - I spend ages in front of the mirror trying to make them work and that is certainly not the case with this top - it is idiot friendly.  The Fantasy Wrap Top is excellent for comfort and sexiness - definitely something to consider for any upcoming Christmas parties and any evening event!  Could be dressed down with a pair of jeans too.

The Michelle Godet Skirt is equally as beautiful and versitile!  It looks great with knee high boots and you can create a stylish shabby chic look by wearing it with flared jeans.  My inner goth also loved this skirt as it has a light mesh top layer that lets is gently flare out.  This skirt is also available in other colours and most recently in red - which looks great!  That said I think what I love most about the black version of this skirt is that it can be used to create so many different looks and is at the same time incredibly figure flattering.

 

I would throughly recommend to anyone in the UK seeking a special outfit to use IGIGI - it has some of the most glamourous plus size clothes I have ever seen and sells the kind of stuff that will make you feel like a fairytale goddess.  And their prices are great - speaking of which - I can save you some money!  Click on the little icon below to see how - save yourself 10%.  Checkout their Sale Rack!

 

Perspective - How Do You Get Some!!!

Whilst I was on holiday I worried loads about the fact that I was not following my diet.

Not only that whilst I was there I regularly ate 'bad' foods (no bingeing - just regular portions!). I was completely convinced that I would gain loads of weight through this.

Yet I have gained none - I have maintained my weight.

I will be going to Malta for Christmas and I don't want to spend another week fretting just because I don't have complete control of what I eat.

I need to keep my head clear of worry and food in 'moderation'.

I was thinking perhaps to aim to have at least have two meals a day that are in line with my diet and let the other be whatever!

When I was away I didn't have any three course meals - I think that might be good behaviour to adopt again at Xmas...

Concerned that I am becoming a bit obsessed with controlling my diet.  Hope that will stop when I eventually get to my target.

Have asked at Minimins for some advice...

Holidays and Diets Don't Mix

I am currently on holiday in Malta, visiting my family.

Feeling quite frustrated at the moment - I don't feel as though I have much control of my diet unless we eat out.  Meal times feel wrong.  Quite anxious now that I may be undoing some of the weight-loss I have achieved during the last two months.  Trying hard to remind myself that this is only a week and that if I practise a certain amount of damage control hopefully I won't put any if much weight (I could live with a pound gain!). 

I will be coming back in December for Christmas which I am quite worried about now.  Have decided that when I come here I will have a budget of money to go food shopping with and I will ensure that I go shopping on first day for breakfasts and lunches - which are the problem areas at the moment.  I will also have to endure some family buffets - which are mammoth here.  I will try to have a meal before going to any of these and am hoping that I can get my mum to ask my family in advance not to feel offended if I don't eat any of their food (except fruit!).

Although I feel very relaxed and chilled from week here so far, I have also been feeling a bit low because I may have messed up my diet and a horrible shoe shopping experience...

I have never been particularly self conscious about my legs - but now I worry I have super huge calves :-( went shopping with my mum to buy some boots only to find that no zip up boots would zip up - not even half way.  I did eventually get some - but I felt as though I had to make a compromise.  GRRRR hate all shopping now - it feels as though everything out there is designed to make me feel like crap!  Looking forward to one day being and feeling normal.  Now also further committed to finding every shop that caters for those us bigger and recording how crap it feels to be overweight/obese - even having lost some weight.

Quick Update

I have been somewhat slack at posting lately!  Had a manic week last week and I am now on holiday (very much needed).  Anyway just wanted to say that I weighed myself last saturday and having lost another three pounds - I have in total now lost 15 pounds and that means I have shifted my first stone!

Was a great moment and I feel liberated by it!  Only four stone to go now!

However this week's holiday is quite a test I really don't want to put on any weight - maintaining would be ideal...  But it is quite hard as I have little control in what I will be able to eat (visiting family abroad) - that said I am trying to stick to my diet as much as possible.  Fingers crossed.

Seven Comes Back From the Dead!

After bitching and moaning here often about how much I was angered that Evans got rid of their seven range...  Seven is coming back - yes check out the Evans homepage and you can see in the corner their link to the new Seven range!

I would especially love this dress - it looks sexy and cute - have the Evans designers been taking tips from perhaps Torrid or Sizeappeal?  Loving this top too!

I am very excited now to see how the Seven range will develop and also amused to see that it has come back now - when I shall hopefully soon be slim enough to shop in 'normal' clothes shops...  Oh well!

Also discovered Yours this week - this another plus size online retailer with some very cheap and fashionable clothes.  It also appears that they have some shops too although they mainly appear to be located in the Midlands...

Catch Up with the News...

I have been rather slack in paying attention to whats been happening in the news lately, focusing some what on just me, me and me...  Actually the truth is I have been very busy at work, been having early nights and needing to spend my evenings relaxing with a DVD.  Despite that a couple of news stories have caught my eyes...

Refreshingly rather than obesity getting all the attention - it seems that the world has now got its claws out for skinny models.

In Spain models with a BMI of less than 18 were banned from the Madrid Fashion Show.  Then at the Milan Fashion week an announcement was made that from next yet all models would have to carry a health certificate and started the week with plus size fashion.

On a personal note, for years I have also not wanted to lose weight because the feminist in me did not want to attempt to fit in to an ideal of women which I cannot be in my mind.  I have no desire to spend much of my life grooming to become an orange (fake tan), highlighted, C list soap star celebrity lookalike.  However my feminist principles will not save me from poor health and I have further confused my own principles through my love of clothes.  But I guess that ultimately clothes are irrelevant and it is having them presented on unrealistic body images is what I find so unacceptable.

Channel Four will soon be airing a new show called Super-Skinny Me: The Race to Size Zero, in which female journalists will try various crash diets in order to become a UK size 2.  Yes thats right a size 2 - I am sure everyone out there has some tiny friends who are 8, maybe even size 6 - I can't begin to grasp what a size 2 is, it's bloody scary.  The press has raised some concerns about the health of the journalists, I know that these are valid concerns but I think this is an excellent idea which will hopefully show how utterly ridiculous it is that some celebrities and models are actually striving to be that size!  I do hope that the show offers a balanced perspective on this all though as I do have some slender friends who struggle to gain weight and all to often I think this is ignored...  Really looking forward to watching this documentary.

Nearly Lost a Stone

On tuesday as I switched on the scales I was prepared for the worst.

Last weekend I had been to Oxford to meet up with my university friends.  At dinner I gave in and ate dessert, an apple and pastry thing with some ice cream.  I did feel a bit guilty, but I wanted it as a treat after a manically busy day at work and a 3 hour trek to Oxford...  I further justified eating because I had that day a small lunch and no snacks.  I did promise myself that after that I would have no more 'treats' and not feel bad about the dessert.

Over the weekend I struggled as my friends snacked on chocolate, pringles and cake, whilst I slurped my low fat yoghurt.

So on tuesday I really expected the dessert to have had a massive impact on my weightloss.

I was so wrong.  13.7 - some how I managed to loose 3 pounds in a week, which brings my total loss so far to 12 pounds.

Upon reflection, it seems that my brain chose to obsess about a minature apple dessert, rather than acknowledge that during the past week my appetite has been poor, that I have been so busy and stressed (about work) that I have been missing my snacks and unable to finish most meals.

Really pleased to be 12 pounds lighter, hoping that this week I will have moved closer to losing a stone (not weighing myself this week because of the monthly evil).  It's quite exciting to think that I have lost a fifth of all the weight I want to lose.  A lot of my clothes are now becoming very loose, particularly trousers.  That said when I look in the mirror, I am not always convinvced that I look any different, but I hope that is a reward that will come in the following months.  Fingers crossed.