Last night I went to the post depot to pick up Professor Bento, he was beautifully wrapped up in brown paper and red plastic bow.
Not sure what I can make for lunch in him on my current limited remainder of jan food budget. But as soon as I do use him, I will indeed copy everyone else and post a piccy here.
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I had this crazy notion that as soon as January started, that somehow I would as if by magic start losing weight again. Obviously this would happen because my mind was in the right place. But the reality was, although my head was in a good place, my mouth was not. Yes my mouth was filled with a starbucks delicious and yummy cinnamon swirl, whilst slurping on their full fat cappuccino (no skinny here!!!). So head good, but my sugar addiction not gone.
One major strop and much comforting from lovely boyfriend later, I and wonderful boy decided that we would start eating low gi foods and that in February once our banks accounts were replenished we would start following the "The Gi Diet Clinic" religiously. I have now not eaten sugar for a week or had any cappuccinos or generally touched anything really bad.
And I had one of those light bulb moments upon reading the GI Diet Clinic (which is the same as original GI Diet book, but has meal plans and good guidance on tricky areas...) where Rick Gallop explains that the GI Diet does not ban any food groups. Bollocks it doesn't ban anything, what about f**king sugar!
Truth is Rick is right, sure sugar is banned, but sweeteners are not. Of course some sweeteners have a slightly shady reputation for causing cancer in small animals, but if you really, honestly follow the principles of the GI Diet you certainly won't be spending your days eating sweetener out of the jar and you are not a hamster. Sweetener like everything else will be in moderation.
So anyway to my epiphany. At the start of my diet at the end of 2006 when telling people about giving up sugar etc... lots of people told me that when they give up sugar after a while they just don't want it anymore or sweet things generally. I have spent the last year trying to be one of those people, struggling to understand why I need sugar badly, blaming poor Mr Rick and his frigging diet and worst of all becoming a secret binger of chocolate.
I now realise that I am not one of those people. I LOVE SWEET things. So all you people who can give up sweet stuff and not need or want it anymore, good for you, but fuck off.
Dearest Ricky-Poos I profusely apologise for blaming you for my horrendous sugar binges and cravings, these were not your fault. However I reserve the right to curse and bitch about you when your diet works less well...
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Well I can see you thinking "okay she's had her epiphany, but what is she gonna do about it".
What I am gonna do? Bake, thats what I have been doing, oh yes I have been making low gi wholemeal scones having them with the amazing st dalfour jam (in moderation of course) and would you believe it, these amazing scones have taken the edge off giving up sugar.
So I will make more scones and many other sweetener full, low gi goodies and maybe at last I might actually get somewhere closer to my goal weight...
This morning whilst innocently reading Elastic Waist, I developed a new condition, Bento Rage...
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There are times when living in the UK frustrates me, especially because it seems big, bloody America gets everything first - EVERYTHING! Films and half of the decent TV shows in existence air there first, the US has all of the decent plus size clothing shops and now the bastards get this first, a named lunch box called Mr Bento. Oh no not just MR, but there is also a Ms and a Mini one too.
Getting a Mr Bento to the UK should be simple? You'd think so... But oh no bloody amazon dot com won't ship it to the UK for some random reason and neither will the majority of other online shops in the US either! Obviously if I could speak and read Japanese I'd order Mr Bento from some super hi-tech website that would probably have him shipped here overnight, but as I don't, I have had to resort to Ebay.
Thanks to goodness of this kind seller I will (and boyfriend) I will soon receiving a Zojirushi Classic Lunch Jar. I will be renaming it either Reverend or Admiral Bento.
I am very excited now about the arrival of my Bento and am already planning in my head many delicious food stuffs to take to work in it, especially as there is a rather snooty notice in my work staff room warning you against microwaving any potentially smelly food...
I've been bad as per usual at updating this blog regularly over the last few weeks.
Sadly I didn't make my Christmas goal of getting down to 11 stone 13 pounds, however I have managed to maintain my weight at 12 stone 6 pounds which is a small bit of relief. I am amazed that I managed trip to Malta without any weight gain, plus all the usual Christmas and New Year parties. I have to be honest and say that this hasn't been achieved through senisble eating, but through being ill. Nothing like fever and staying in to cut down on those unnecessary festive calories.
Whatever Christmas now being over I can now focus on my new year plans, which I hope will be more successful... I have signed up for the yoga class, next week I am hoping that university where I play squash will reopen and then I will also need to organise going to aqua aerobics, provided my exercise buddy is still up for that... I just need to plan some meals and then hopefully the scales may once again show numbers getting lower and lower, because I really want to 2008 to be the year of no more dieting and the start of my new healthier life with senisble eating and exercise...
Interestingly Rick Gallop has produced a new GI Diet book with a 13 week plan which most people following the plan lost roughly two stone. If I could lose two stone in nearly 3 months I would be thrilled! Anyway I think I will check out the book when it appears in my local shops and see what I think, I am all for hearing tips and guidance, but not sure about meal plans as one of things I liked most of all of the original book is the freedom to choose whatever I wanted to eat! But as I am rubbish a lot of the time at sticking to my own meal plans it could be a positive change to have that aspect taken out of my control.
Well its just over week since I stepped on the scales to see a horrific amount of weight gain which shocked me speedily into action.
I was much relived this morning to see the scales showing me 12 stone 6 pounds. So thats 5 pounds off in a week, which further reassures me that my gain was just water.
As I always, I like to have a plan.
My goal is now to get back to my lowest weight of 11 stone 13 pounds by the 20th of December when I shall be flying off to Malta. Whilst in Malta I need to understand that going away does not equate to stuff yourself like a pig. I hope to however maintain my weight for the week I am there by feeding myself when staying in with my parents and when eating out I must make senisble choices of what I eat. I am going to try the Rick Gallop thing of asking for no potatoes with my meals. And I need to practice the maltese saying of 'shay grazi' which means 'nothing, thank you' - which is what I will say to my family when they offer me copious amounts of alcohol and cake.
Upon my return to England I shall continue to play squash twice a week, enrol on the yoga course I have been planning to for some time (parting with £80 for the course will hopefully inspire me to keep at it) and I will also find an aqua aerobic class. Yes I finally have a fellow exercise buddy who no good at finding courses, but is willing to come with me to a class if I can find one. This is a wonderful arrangement for me as I am very internet and exercise class finding savvy, but complete pants at actually going to these things without anyone.
It is as you can see a wonderful plan, like all my magical, perfect plans...
Of course there are challenges, number of one of which is coming up this weekend.
Every christmas my close friends from University and I meet up to have a Christmas dinner. I have agreed to bake a cake for the occasion, which again, like last year I shall be baking only to not eat it.
Oh and lookie I decided to get back into dieting right before Christmas - well thats a challenge in itself! Strangely I find the challenge of all this quite exciting, so obviously I am some kind of crazy sadastic dieter!
Well thats it for now, I shall keep you posted with my progress and problems as I get my head back into this dieting business.
I've often ranted here since April, May time about my inability to get back into this dieting business.
I moaned about how I feel cheated by dieting, about how cutting out sugar has perverted my relationship with the stuff.
Despite my craving to get back to the right frame of mind to diet, I just haven't been able to do it.
Tuesday I weighed myself and was shocked to see 12 stone 11 pounds.
Since then I've had no problem following the GI diet and turning down the bad stuff. I'm relieved to already be down to 12.7, which means it is mainly water I gained - phew.
I think my obsession with soup has been a hindrance, because although it is healthy and low calorie, it is also time consuming to make. It seems as much as I love to cook, there are also nights you don't. So I've been eating turkey or fish with new potatoes and vegetables for the last few evenings which involves much less effort.
I've decided that when I go to Malta in a few weeks for Christmas I am going to turn down my parents lovely home made cooking and cook for myself.
And exercise - I finally have been getting some... Played squash twice this week and playing again on Sunday, playing against friends is a good motivation. And I've been told that if I find an exercise class of some kind, I'll have an exercise buddy to go with.
So phew it has finally all fallen into place again. My brain that is.
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The moral of the story is that I should have stuffed my face sooner, then the shame and weight gain would have spurred me into action faster. Grrrr. One word for you.
Bollocks.
I've recently been contacted by Melissa from RDF television who is looking to speak to some plus size and proud ladies, preferably with a family, anyway if you are looking for your five minutes of fame, please see Melissa's advert below, which includes her contact details...
ARE YOU OR YOUR FAMILY BIG & BEAUTIFUL?
Are you fed up of the current Size Zero obsession?
Do you think it’s better to be healthy and happy than all skin and bones?
If you are curvy
and proud of your shape and size then we want to hear from you for a
documentary series looking at family life in the UK!
If this sounds like you please contact Melissa on
0207 013 4514 or
Dearest Plus Size Shop Owners,
If you are out there, email me to let me know you exist, I want your links! I want to ensure that I have links for every shop that caters for larger sizes, whether you have a chain of shops, an online shop, a market stall or a single solitary shop, if you've got a site with clothes for sale or your information - GIVE IT TO ME!
Soon I'll have a comprehensive list of every wonderful person or company out there that sells plus size clothing and then I'll be able to take over the world! Mwah haahaaha.
Actually I'll just then have the most impressive list of plus size clothing you've ever seen!
Email me!
Curvy Goddess xx xx xx
I've recently been sent links from 2 online shops who sell designer plus size clothing. By designer I'm talking about Anna Scholz, Elena Miro etc... so the clothes are not cheap, but they are lush and beautiful and larger ladies too are quite with in their right spend loads on clothes, designer labels are not just the right of those skinner than us.
Anyway check out Sosienna who specialise in American Designers (and Anna Scholz!) and Beige who in addition to their online shop, have 2 shops in London, they mainly specialise in Italian, Spanish and French designers.
Thanks to you both for letting me know you are out there!
A little while ago the lovely peeps at Elastic Waist asked me if I would write them a piece for their blog regular 'From the Vault'. Anyway here it is...
An easy going girl in brighton trying to get healthy
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